My problem broke me down in a glance. When a girl left me for her new boyfriend. I found this all out last March when I viewed her profile in friendster and found out that they've been seeing each other for a month. I tried to talk to her but she always refuse. I tried and tried but she always do the same thing until I got tired of chasing after her.

Then, one day I was asleep when someone's knocking my door. It was her visiting me for unknown reason. I ask her the reason of visiting me and she just said she was visiting me. After a couple of hours she was borrowing five thousand (5000) pesos (that's 100 US Dollars) from me. I'm angry at her but I just can't hurt her so I just ignore her and try to continue my sleep. When I woke up, she's gone... with my cellphone (Nokia N82.) I texted her 3 days after the incident and she replied, "we know each other for 2 years. I can't steal your things."

After 2 weeks I bought a 2nd hand phone (Motorola L6.) The next day, someone's knocking on my door again while I was asleep. It was her again. I tried to hide my phone to make sure that she can't get it from me. We were together for 3 days and 3 nights. Then when I woke up in the morning of the 4th day she was gone again with my phone (Moto L6) and my atm card (BPI.) I tried to text her and she replied, "I was walking my way home when a man with a knife blocked me and steal your phone away." I was in great sadness after she said it.

And then the third time she went to my home she was taking me to my room. I asked her prankly, "What are you doing here? How dare you ask a favor to me. Do you expect me to help you after all the things you've done to me? Go home. Nothing will happen to you here." Then she said, "How can I go home? I don't have any money here?" I feel pity for going to my house without money to go back. (How stupid isn't she?) So I lend him one hundred (100) pesos (2 dollars) and before she leave we got a short chat to each other and she asked me, "when will we meet again?" I just said, "Talk to your boyfriend. Don't come back here until you're done with him." Her anger drives her away from me. Yes, she walked out somewhere I don't know. Of course, I didn't follow her. I just bought a quick bite and a softdrink from 7-11 and went home to sleep again.

2 days later she's knocking on my door again. I opened it and lay myself again to bed while she's explaining while crying. She embraced me while saying sorry. I don't know what to say so I didn't speak to her. After an hour she was calling my name and I said, "finished explaining? Go home. Nothing will happen." Then the arguement continues, and suddenly broke when I stopped talking.

Days passed and I realized that I am very stupid to help a person with no relation to me. I guess I'd rather help my parents or other relatives then to lend him my money. I opened her profile and I still she the way how they comment back on each other. I can feel their sweetness and I can't totally take it. So I decided not to meet her again.

I have no one to trust right now. Am I really that st00pid? I gave everything for the sake of my love for her (I think she still have a debt of more or less ten thousand (10, 000) pesos ($250 US Dollars I think.) I can't really remember. Because of her my personality was ruined. I couldn't bring my old self. And the hardest part of this is that you are breaking down but you couldn't cry (I tried but I really can't.) I'm a great disgust to myself.

And oh, I'm using Motorola V3i as my phone recently.

And I promised myself not to make any commitments with any girls for now. Anytime but not now...

I have read your post yesterday and trying to do what you said. I'm trying to live my life alone. I feel like I lost my manlihood trying to pull myself back up. I know it's hard but I'm trying.